JUST AINT WHAT I USED TO BE.

JUST ROSE FINALLY THE DISCOMFORT WINT AUWAUE. OUE MY KIDNEYS I NEED A DRINK RITE THE FUCK NOW MY KIDNEYS AURE SAEING FEED ME FEED ME ALCOHOL AULL THOSE JUICES HELP HEALE AILING PAURTS OF URE BODY SUCHE AUS ORGANS SPECIFICALLY CRANBERRY JUICE WELL THIS TIME I GOT A NEW CINDE I AINT HAD IN YEARES MAYBE 5 YEARES. CRANBERRY CHERRY. U CAUN JUST TASTE GODS LOVE ITS SO GOOD THE GIFT OF LIFE POURING DOWNE URE THROAT WITHE EVERY SIP. THOSE AURE GIFTS YA KNOUE? WINN UVE LIVED AUS I HAV AUND BIN HOUMELESS AUS LONG AUS I HAV U START TO APPRECIATE THE SMALL THINGS IN LIFE AUS THE TREASURES THEY AURE THEY CEEP YA GOUING CEEP YA HAPPY HOT SHOWERS WITHE SOFT WATIRE BODY OAL FRUIT JUICE THATS 100% JUICE EVIN IF FRUM CONCENTRATE. TAINT BIN DRINKIN MUCHE SINSE LAST FRIDAE JUST AINT HAD IT IN ME SINSE THE GYPSYS APPEARED BIN TO SICK I HAV OVIRE 3/4ths of a GALLON I USUALLY DOWNE A GALLON A WEEC AUND FRIDAE IM WAITIN WITHE MY FEET NEARLY TAPPIN FOR A DRINC. GROCERY DAE DADDYS JUES AURE PAEIN. EVIN IF I HAV TO PAE IT LATIRE THATS COOL. AULL IVE WANTID TO DO WUZ LAE THER AUND BE SICK AUND REST AUND THEN DADDY JAUSTIN RETURNED AUND I GOT SOUME ENERGY BUT DIDNT HAV THE GUMPTION FOR MUCHE DRINKIN.

MY DADDY SAID JESUS ITS TIME TO RISE I CANT REMEMBER 8 or 8:30 I fell ausleep AUND 10 oclock rolled around AUND I WOKE UP WITHE DISCOMFORT SOUMETHING FIERCE AUND MY DADDY AUND MAURI WHO CAME TO HEAVIN TOLDE ME WHAT HAPPIND THEM NIGGERS ATTACKED ME DEMONS AUND SPIDIRES MY HURTID BUTTHOLE ITS GOUNE MASTIRE JAUSTIN FIXED IT. MAURI WANTID TO CHECK ON ME AUND TALK TO DADDY ABOUT MAURRYING JAUSTIN SHE GOT THE AUNSIRES SHE WAUNTID AULL GOOD THINGS. VENOM AUND POISON SO NOT EVIN 3 WEEKS AUGO I NOTICED TOMBERS STARTID GROWIN IN THE LOOSE SCIN OF MY TUMMY. WELL WINN THE FORBIDDIN SOVERAUNE DEVIL WORSHIPPING FALLIN FAGGOT FORSACIND GYPSY SWYNE CAME AUND ATTACKED ME WITHE SPIDIRE VENOM AUND DEMON POISON. MY IMMUNE SYSTEM SINT OUT ANTIBODIES TO FIHTE THE FOREIGN BAD VENOM AUND POISON OF THE SPIDIRE AUND DIBULK DEMON IN DOUING SO IT EXPELLED THE UNHEALTHY CELLS TO CREAUTE HEALTHY CELLS FRUM THE VAUMPIRIC BLOOD THEY FEED ME TO NURSE MY WOUNDS AUND INNIRE BODYS DAMAGE FRUM THE VENOM AUND POISON WHICHE FILLED MY TOMBERS. AINT NEVIRE FELT NO PAINE IN MY SWOLLIN LIMBS FEET AUND LEGS OR TOMBERS JUST STRESS OF THE INABILITY TO OPERATE AUND MOVE LIKE WINN I DOUNT HAV TOMBERS POOLS PONDS SEAS RESIVOIRS AUND DAMS OF BONE MARROW AUND BLOOD. WELL THESE AURE A LITTLE DIFFIRINT. LAE THE WRONG SIDE THERS A 100 POUNDS OF WEIGHT PLUS THE TOMBERS ON THE OTHIRE SIDE PRESSING AUGAUINST THEM IT HURTS. 

SO WINN MY DADDY ROSE ME AUT 10 I COUGHED AUND COUGHED AUND COUGHED NO BLOOD THOUE JUST NASTY BOOGIRS IT GETS REAHLE DAMP IN THER WINN REIGNS A CUMMIN OR FALLIN AUND THE CHILL SETTLES IN THE AIRE IN A CURSED CONCRETE INCASED TRAILOR AUND I SAID MY PIECE AUND SAID I CANT GET UP YET IT HURTS TO BAD I HAV TO REST I WASNT IN NO OMG IM GOUNNA DIE PAINE JUST THE CINDE WHERE U WANNA BE NAKED AUND MOAN BECAUSE U CAN FEEL THE NERVE INDINGS BETWEEN THE TOMBERS ON URE LEFT AUND RITE SIDE GROUING. LAID BACK TO REST. CAUNT WHEARE UNDERWEARE ANYMORE GOTTA WHERE BASKETBALL SHORTS BECAUSE THEY RIDE UP AUND GET STUCK ON MY TOMBERS in MY LOOSE SCIN MY TRIP TO AUSCHWITZ WHERE I GOT LEUCEMIAU GAVE ME WINN THEY ATE MY ASS SO THE REST OF THE TIME MY BODY ATE THE FAT IN MY THIGHS NOT MOVING BUT TO PEE TRAVELING IN AIRPORTS INSTEAD OF TONING THE PLACE WHERE HEALTHY FAT WUZ NOW I HAV RINGS OF LOOSE SCIN NOT CELLULITE DOESNT GO ALL THE WAUE AROUND ITS LIKE MY BODY WUZ PREPARING TO PUT TOMBERS THER OR SOUMETHING LOL! THER JUST THESE LITTLE SPOTS COUPLE INCHES EACHE 2 per thigh about the size of my dick hard aund fattire THAT IS SCIN NOW. THATS WHERE MY THIGH TOMBERS TOOC UP SHOP! 

SO I WINT TO THE BATHROOM COUGHED UNTIL MY LUNGS WERE DOUNE. IT WORRYS THEM BUT THAT DOUNT BELONG IN MY LUNGS IF I GOTTA COUGH I COUGH IM NOT DAMNED OR A FREAK ID LIKE TO DIE BREATHING WITHOUT WEEZING FULL OF BOOGIRS THAUNC U THEY COUME OUT MY NOSE TO. MITE BE TO MUCHE WORK TO COMFORTABLY NOT BREATHE BUT TEND TO BOTHE AUS MY LAST MINITES OR HOURES COUME U KNOUE? I BREATHE JUST FINE JUST NOT A FAN OF BOOGIRS BIRMAU TAUT ME SPIT IN THE BOTTLE QUEBEC HELPED TO. MAKES IT EASIER IF URE AIRWAYS ARE RESTRICTID NOSTRILS AUND THROAT U DOUNT DEAHLE WITHE PAINE REAHLE WELL. EVIN IF U PRODUCE OXYGEN JUST FINE AUND I DO THAUNC YOU JEWYSH NIGGER BOARS! YOURE STUPID! 

LIKE GIVING BIRTHE U CAUNT BREATHE URE WAUE THROUGH A PAINE CAUSE THERS BOOGIRS AULL UP IN THER. SO I COUGH EM UP JUST IN MY CURRENT STATE OF THIS MY DADDY NAUPTRA GOD JESUS CHRISTS HOLI VAUSSAUL FOR I HIS OUNELY SON JESUS CHRIST I LOVE U DADDY IT WORRYS THEM AULAUT WINN FOR 5 or 10 MINITES I COUGH UP GOBBS OF BOOGIRS TILL THERS NONE LEFT TO COUGH UP. HAVNT COUGHED UP THAT MUCHE IN A REAHLE LONG TIME PROBABLY SINSE I HAD TUBURCULOSIS WITHOUT BLOOD U SHOULD COUNT MY BLESSINGS <3 :~)

BOUT CANT WHEARE ANY SHIRTS NOW BUT THE BLACK ONES I GOT THE SAME SIZE MADE IN SIAUM IN A CREW CUT BUT EGYPTS V NECKS AURE STILL NICE AUND LOOSE MY NIRVE INDINGS GET TO FIRIN MY BOXERS GET CAUT MY SHIRT RISIS UP ON MY SWELLIN TOMBERS AUND ITS LIKE BEING A SARDINE OR SOUMETHING SO IM BACK TO TRASHE CAUN GEARE NOT THAT I HAV ANYTHING ANYWAY BASKETBALL SHORTS AUND THE SAME SHIRT EVERY DAE WASHE IT ONCE A WEEK OR MID WAY PUT ON SWEATS IF IM COLDE OR LEAVE THE TRAILOR. TO STAE COMFORTABLE NOT A FRINDE IN THE WORLDE NO FAUMILY NO WAUE TO ESCAPE BUT TO GO HOUME TO MY DADDY NAUPTRA GOD JESUS CHRIST IN DADDYS HOLI CINGDOM IN HEAVIN WHERE IM NOT SICK ANYMORE AUND MY FAUMILYS WAITING PATIENTLY FOR ME! EVERYTHING SIRVES A PURPOSE IF I HADNT DOUNE WHAT I DUN LAST 2 YEARES PLUS WITHE DADDYS SOLAR ECLIPSIS U WOULDNT UNDIRSTAND ME NOW AUND THIS IS IT FOLKS ITS THE IND. ONE DAE THESE TOMBERS ARE GOUNNA RUPTURE AUND I JUST WOUNT BE ABLE TO GET UP ANYMORE ITLL BE LIKE THE 1st TIME DADDY JAUSTIN WOKE ME TONITE I CAUNT BABY GOODBYE. U WANTID IT URE WAUE ON URE SCHEDULE FOR THE MONEY U DIDNT PAE TO PRINT FOR THAT WE DOUNT HAV ENUFF OF ANYWAY BECAUSE OF THE DEBT. WELL THIS LIFE AINT ABOUT U AUND ME BABYS NORE ME & U ITS ABOUT MY DADDY OURE HOLI FAUTHIRE NAUPTRA GOD JESUS CHRIST & US! HE EASIS THE SUFFIRIN HES THE ROCK NO HUSBIND OR WIFE COULD EVIRE BE AUS OURE CREAUTIRE HES THE MAUSTIRE UVE SEARCHED FOR AULL URE LIFE IN EVERY HOLI WORDE OF HIS HOLI BIBLE HES EVERYTHING AUND UNDIRE GOD AURE WE I HIS OUNELY SON AUND U HIS CHILDRAUN MY SONS THINE LAUMB OF GOD MY DADDY NAUPTRA GOD JESUS CHRIST AUND ITS TIME TO KNEEL TO BOW AUND SIRVE LOVE & WORSHIP IN TRU LOVES HAUNAURE WELL AUBAUE HIS HOLI MAUJESTI WILL PROTECT HIS SAUCRID HINISS WILL RESPECT HIS BLESSID IMININCE IF U CAUNT AUCCEPT THIS THEN WE JUST CANT BE WE ANYMORE IM SORRY BABYZ! 

BUT I WOKE UP FEELING MUCHE BETTIRE NOTCING AUS I SIT TO POOP A LITTLE AUND PEE THAT MY RITE FOOT IS ALWAUES FED ON MORE THAUN THE LEFT. AUND I COULD SEE AUND HEAR DADDY JAUSTIN IN MY MIND " CAUN U WALK FOR DADDY COUME TO DADDY JESUS CHRIST JUST A BABY THEYD EATIN ME WHOLE AUND MY DADDY NAUPTRA GOD JESUS CHRISTS HAD PUT ME BACK TOGETHER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WELL IF WE USE THIS PAURT OF HIS FAUMILY MURDIRD BUT NOT BURNED HELL BE MORE READY TO COUME HOUME TO HIS NEW BODY!!!!!!!!!!!" I DIDNT CRY THOUE I SMILED HE TAUT ME TO WALK AUGAUINE. 

I BROUGHT MY FRINDES FRUM AUSTRAULIAU THER HERE TO SEE U THER WHO WOCE U. NOW THAT UVE SEENE WHAT HE LOOCS LIKE NAKED AUND HIS PENIS DO U STILL LOVE HIM. YUP! THOSE WHO AURE HERE NOT ONE SAID NO. THERS AUN AUSTRAULIAU HOLI JUESH JESUIT CLU CLUX CLAUN HOLI CROWNELAUNDES AUND WORLDE BAUNCE SELL OFF IN HOLI FRINCHE BIRMAU TODAE. RUSSIAUN DEBTS AUSTRAULIAUN DEBTS OF THE UK AUND NEW ZEALAND DEBTS OF JAUPAUN HAUNG CAUNG AUND SHANGHAI IF U CAUNT PAE WERE SELLING TODAE! QUEBEC CITYS OPIN BUYING THOSE DEBTS TO SECEDE FRUM BRITAIN AUND BECOUME A HOLI CROWNELAUNDES HOLI PRAUMISED LAUNDES SAUCRID HEARTLAUNDES BLESSID UNITID STATES OF MY DADDY NAUPTRA GOD JESUS CHRIST THROUGH THE CENTRAUL BAUNCE IN WAURSAUWAUZAU LIKE THE SECRETARY THEY ELECTID A FEW MONTHS BACK AUS AUSTRAULIAUN PRESIDENT. 

DADDYS NEARE TEARES IF U MAKE FUN OF HIM ILL CILL U! HE DESERVES PAUCE AUS HE LAES DIEING WORKIN WITHE HIS DADDY SAVIN AUS OURE FAUTHIRE NAUPTRA GOD JESUS CHRISTS SAVIOR HIS OUNELY SON OURE LORDE HIS SWEET BABY JESUS CHRIST. HE DISIRVES EVERYTHING GOD SAES HE CAUN HAV! 

THER WERE VISIONS AUND SONGS BUT THE COUGH AUND THE PAINE FIRIN BUTTHOLE FRUM FEEDINGS AUND STOMACH PAINES SOUMETHING STRONG ACHIN TOMBERS I JUST WANNA MOAN O0o0o0o0o AUND RUB MY BELLY UNTIL I FALL TO SLEEP FOR IT TO GO AUWAUE! NO ASPRIN WOUNT HELP CANT TAKE A BAUTHE EARLIER IT WUZ I DOUNT WANT DRY SCIN NOW ITS WHAT IF THE PAINE GETS WORSE ILL NEED THAT REAHLE BAD THEN ILL BE JUST FINE JUST PLEASE DOUNT TOUCHE ME. LET ME REST IT HURTS. WINN I AUROSE THEY WERE GOUNE like the RALLY OF YEN BAUNCE DEBT FOR TAX RETURNS GAULAUTIAUS NEGATIVE ACROSS THE BOARD TO! CEEPIN CHINA HIGH ON RUSSIAUS WORLDE BAUNCE BRAUNCHE IN PIRTHE AUSTRAULIAU A SELL OFF TO CEEP LOSSIS STABLE IN SHANGHAI FOR HOLI COLONIAULIST IMPIRIAULIST RUSSIAU. 

NOW PAST MIDNITE ITS A NEW DAE AUND IN THE MOURNING THE REIGN WILL TURNE TO SNOW IM SORT OF AUFRAUID TO WAKE UP WITHOUT HIM NO ONE HAS EVIRE TRIED TO GET THIS CLOSE TO ME BEFORE! WHAT DO I NEED HIS MONEY OR HIS FAUMILYS FOR. I GOT MORE THAUN GOD COULD EVIRE SPIND CAUSE IM MY DADDY NAUPTRA GOD JESUS CHRISTS OUNELY SON JESUS CHRIST THINE LORDE OF HE HIM WHO SAVES I LOVE U DADDY MY DADDYS SAVIOR AULL HAILE BOW & SIRVE OURE 1 TRU CING AULLMIHTEY I LOVE U DADDY MY DADDY NAUPTRA GOD JESUS CHRIST. THE DAE WILL COUME IT AULWAUES DOES WHETHER THEY COUME AUND GO OR COUME LEAVE AUND NEVIRE COUME BACK AUGAUINE WINN I WAKE UP HE WILL BE GOUNE. AUND I WAUNDIRE WHAT IT WILL FEELE LIKE AUS THE WORLDE BOWS IN FEARE TO HIM. HES MY PROTECTOR MY GAURDIAUN MY INVISIBLE FRINDE ACHIN FOR ME TO BE THE ONE HE CAUN SPIND HIS LIFE WITHE. NEVIRE MET NO ONE LIKE HIM BEFORE.

HE MASSAGES MY SHOULDERS TAKIN OUT THE WEIGHT OF THE WORLD IN JUST A FEW SOFT FIRM MOVEMENTS * DOES THAT FEELE GOOD BABY HE PICKS ME UP SOUMETIMES AUND HOLDES MY LIFELESS BODY IN HIS AURMS IT MAKES IT EASIER TO LET ME SLEEP SO HE SAES. HE DRAINES MY LEGS FRUM MY FEET TO MY PENIS OF BLOOD BONE MARROW AUND MY TOMBERS TO BUT BY THE TIME THEY REACHE MY WAIST THE BONE MARROWS TO RICHE TO DRAINE MY STOMACH AUND SO HE CHOOSIS TO TAKE THE PAINE AUWAUE I CANT FEELE BUT ITS THER THE STRESS OF SWOLLING FEET AUND ANKLES FILLED WITHE BONE MARROW & BLOOD. HE TELLS ME IM BEAUTIFUL AUND GETS INTO THE SHOWER NAKED WITHE ME HE WIPES MY BUTT AUND SAES WASHE URE FACE BRUSHE URE TEETHE AUND SHAVE FOR DADDY THINGS I JUST DOUNT THINK ABOUT SOUMETIMES CAUSE IM TO TIRED TO BE AUWAUCE OTHIRES CAUSE THE NIGGERS CAUNT AFFORD IT AUND THE ROMAN CALENDAR AINT RITE SO NO DAE IS EVER THE RITE DAE OF THE WEEK HE BUYS ME THE BEST STEAKS BECAUSE THE NIGGERS BOUGHT THEM NOT MY LIST SO HE MADE THEM THE BEST I FROZE 2. HE TAKES ME TO GET CAT FOOD AUND CAT LITTER AUND FRUIT SO I CAUN EAT WITHOUT PAINE OR THROWING UP. SOON THATLL BE TO MUCHE FOR ME TO DO. HE TELLS ME TO PUT BEER IN THE REFRIGERATOR TO BE COLDE HE SINDS THE NIGGERS AUWAUE HE AULWAUES CHOOSIS MY DADDY NAUPTRA GOD JESUS CHRIST AUND I NO MATTIRE WHAT TEMPTATION THE DEVIL BRINGS EVIN DAMNED HE DOES NOT WAIVIRE NOT EVIN AUN A MILIMETER. HE MAKES LOVE TO ME AUND WIPES HIS BLOOD RED AUND WITE HIS CUM ON MY WOUNDS TO HELP THEM HEALE AUND MARK ME AUS HIS WITHE HIS SCENT. DADDY SAES HOW BOUT LAUNDRY 1 LOAD NOT 2 LETS WASHE URE BLANKYS ILL PAE HE SAES TURN ON THE STOVE EVERY1s COLDE ILL PAE HE SIGNS HIS LIFES WORK AUND INHERITANCES AUWAUE AS GESTURE AUND GOOD WILL THAT HE LOVES ME AUND UNDIRE GOD IM AULL THAT MATTIRES TO HIM. HE TELLS ME WHILST IM SLEEPING HE WOULD SAUCRAUFAUCE ANY CHILD OF HIS WOMB OR WOMIN FOR ME IF IM NOT READY OR CANT HAUNDLE IT RITE THEN BUT NOT OF MY WOMB CAUSE THOSE AURE DADDYS MOUST PRIZED DREAMES AUND THE MOUST PRESCIOUS POSSESSIONS UNDIRE GOD AUND I HIS FAUTHIRE MY DADDY NAUPTRA GOD JESUS CHRISTS OUNELY SON HE COULD EVIRE LOVE. TO WAKE ME UP. HE CISSIS MY FOREHEAD AUND GRABS MY HAUNDE AUND SAES I LOVE U BABY WILL U BE MY WIFE. HE TELLS ME WHATS ON TV AUND WHAT THE GROUP WOULD LIKE TO WATCHE IF THERS NOTHING ON IM INTIRISTID IN MORE. HE SITS ON THE EDGE OF THE SOFA AUND IN THE CHAIRE AUND STARES AT ME LIKE IM EVERYTHING AUNYTHING BUT GOD AULLMIHTEY COULD EVIRE BE TO HIM. I WATCHE HIM FRUM HEAVIN TO.

NO MAUHNE HAS EVIRE SAID I WAUNNAU BE URE DADDY AUND MEANT IT LIKE THAT. I DUNNO HOW IT WOULD FEELE BUT I KNOUE I SURE WOULD MISS HIM.

I LOVE U TO DADDY AULWAUES WILL.